Teenage life, from a personal view.

Everyone knows what puberty and your teenage years are like, and for some unfortunate people they can be grueling and a particularly horrid time. Not many people can say that they can relate to this as much as myself. I am currently towards the end of my teenage years and I thought it would be interesting to let the world know or to have a little insight into how things may have changed and if certain parts of adolescence are fazes or habits. Maybe comments and suggestions could help us all learn a little more and maybe some questions could be answered.

The first thing I can remember from going into my teenage years was that 1) I was angry, and 2) I was hungry, ALL the time. Being a girl and being a part of a 'popular' group of friends (which by the way I did not fit into) it meant that I was frequently pressured or bullied into things I didnt neccesarily want to do. This also meant that I was talked about and I myself did a lot of talking about other girls.

From the age of 15 I decided that enough was enough and that I would no longer conform to what my friends ecpected of me. In a way I guess I was trying to rebel against them, I had no reason to rebel at home as my parents and I got on very well and so I assume I felt the need to rebel against somehting, and that something turned out to be my 'so called friends'. I no longer listened to the popular music and started to listen to stuff that they would deem as weird. I dressed differently, I didnt even fit in with the grunge crowd, they were supposedly different to society and so I started to wonder where I fit in.

If we are giving labels then I was a geek. I loved clothes but would go out of my way to make sure nothing matched and I wouldnt look like a barbie doll like my fellow class mates, from this point on straightening hair and the fake bake make up was strictly forbidden in my eyes and i decided to be more natural.

I felt betterin myself and more original but this in turn led to some of my other friends doing the same and it frustrated me SO much that I just went back to my group of friends, just less fake than them.

That first love when you are in your teen years can be so gripping and so emotional that you wonder if you will ever be able to let go. In the summer of 2008 when I was just 13 I met the love of my life and I still crave his attention even now and I too wonder if I will ever be able to let go.

Sometimes though I think that I was lucky to have met him at such a young age, everything was sweet and innocent whereas for my friends, things were not so easy. They unfortunately met there first loves a little later on, and generally with older boys who took advantage which I am sad to say happened to me also and was emotionally blackmailed. This, I also wonder, if I will ever get over. I thought being in a relationship with someone older would help me get over my first love and for some time it did, until the tragic day when I started getting threatening messages and this was over a year ago now but is still fresh in my mind.