Teenage memories.

Memories fuel us to move forward. Accelerate us into the future to make new ones. Especially in our teenage years. There are so many new and captivating things to try that a lot of experimenting happens often leading to memories that last forever, and not always good ones at that.

Recently I have met so many inspiring people who say inspiring things and these are things I will remember. These are good memories. But being a teenager means that there are still a lot of mistakes to be mad, therefore of course leading to bad memories.

In my time as a teenager I have done some pretty stupid things and regret them deeply at first I just wanted to run away but then I decided to face my fears and in the beginning I felt as though I was making progress but it seems recently I haven’t gotten away from my problems at all I just postponed them and this is why later this year I am actually moving, running away. These memories are bad and running away will cause others to get hurt but this is the only way to get away from bad memories.

My friend actually went through a similar situation and faced her fears and got through it, leading me towards confronting my problems however it did not have the same affect.

Good people can get mixed up in bad situations, I want to say through no fault of their own but in my case I cannot blame anyone but myself and so now I am filled with bad memories and can rarely remember any good, the reason I started a diary last year.

This does all sound a bit doom and gloom but there is an upside. For the most part good memories are so amazing that they rule out the bad and if you think of a good memory (do this now) and let it fill you up, then no matter how long ago it was, a day or a year it can feel as though you are there and in that memory if you let it fully take over you. For a brief moment you are their and feel a very happy sensation one that is so powerful you know you will never forget it.

The downside to this is that when you finally return to the real world you realise it didn't just happen and that reality is far worse and you would rather stick to fantasy.

If I have learned anything from my teenage years I think it is that you should let yourself be open to happy memories and not block them out even if thinking about them causes immense pain after because that brief second of happiness is far more rewarding than the pain that comes after.